Date: August 25, 2025
Today was a stark reminder of just how difficult it is to change a deep-seated routine, especially one as fundamental as sleep. I had everything planned out—a new micro-schedule for Day One, filled with purposeful activities from morning until early afternoon. But the day, in its own way, had other plans. I stayed up until 4:00 AM, which inevitably led to sleeping in until 3:30 PM.
My plan for the day effectively became obsolete before I even woke up. The logs I had meticulously prepared only ran until 1:00 PM. So, by the time I was up and ready to face the world, my entire schedule was blank.
It’s easy to feel defeated in moments like this. The sense of a “failed day” is heavy, and it’s tempting to throw in the towel. The feeling of being “behind” is immense. But I tried to salvage what I could. I still managed to check off a few things: I did some Qigong, practiced meditation, and drank my water. These small victories are important, and I need to remind myself of that.
However, the core issue remains. My sleep schedule is a ghost in the machine, a silent saboteur of my best intentions. I’ve put so much effort into creating a detailed, day-to-day plan with alarms and sequences, but if I’m not getting the sleep I need at the right time, the whole structure feels fragile.
This is a significant concern for the future. I am worried about the sustainability of these plans if I can’t get my sleep under control. The plans are excellent, the intentions are pure, but they are built on a foundation that feels shaky right now.
The main takeaway from today is that adjusting to a new routine isn’t just about willpower; it’s about acknowledging and working with my own human biology and deeply ingrained habits. The alarms are just tools; they don’t force me to sleep or wake up. The real work is in aligning my body’s needs with my goals.
I’ve already found a better way to schedule things, and I have the next five days laid out. This is a step forward, but the underlying challenge of sleep remains. I must address it directly, perhaps by incorporating a more gentle and gradual transition into a new sleep cycle, rather than trying to force it. Today was not a failure; it was a lesson.
Carmen 
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